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Have you ever woke up one day and realized just how lucky you are to have certain things in your life? Or how lucky you are to have someone love you or to have a friend to lean on? Well, over the past year I realized just how lucky I am. Within that one year I thought I had lost everything the moment I lost papa.,See my pops had been the one who protected me from this cruel world full of pain and lies. The one to tell me never to cry over anyone who will not cry over you.Keep my head up and walk away from a fight before it begins. Well,then he passed away and left me to go to a better place leaving me here very confused. So, here it is one year later and I am stronger than ever battling every obstacle whether it be friends family or school and it seems I have become stronger. I have learned to like everyone but to not trust everyone so easily. To hold on to memories and make every moment unbelievable.It's all because of my pop. Today my life could not be more perfect.I am a fashion designer just starting out my frist ever clothing line should be out sometime within the next few months and the store will be located in Cherry Hill NJ. Very exciting!! I am also attending law school and I am in my last few years which hopefully at the end of all the endless studying will lead me to my dream job. To be a DA(District Attorney). I am far from the bitchy attorney type though for some reason I have a heart lol every says I should be a Defense attorney because I sympathieze too much with people. But I am only human. Then there is the other part of my life that gets me away from my crazy long hours of countless cups of caffiene and penal laws and that is the ARTS. I am very much into music and dance. I have taken ballet since I was just a wee one and I have never once regerted it even if my feet tended to disagree but point shoes will do that to you. One of my favorite dreams was to someday dance for the NYC ballet company it is only the best in the U.S. but my parents felt it was better for me to stick with law so I never got to go to the juliard auditions.But I still practice and I still love to dance wheteher it be classical jazz rap hip hop house or whatever types I still can't seem to stop.Then there is my more instrumenatel side. I play violin and keyboard. Aww the beauty of the sounds of my own music being played beneath my fingertips. I just adore it. My voice is my other instrument needs alot of work but I love to sing and I finally got the chance of getting to perform and record it with a small recording company in NYC. Yet I have so many other hobbies I guess I am too outgoing but I also love to paint, Write poetry, love to watch basketball and baseball my teams are the 76 ers and but of course the yankees but it usually depends on the team they are going aganist if I will place a bet lol, golfing with my stepdad on sunday mornings,oh damn you can catch me ridin dirty and illegally for the next two months hahaha so happy I know how to get out of tickets that's what I call friends in high places whoah!,early morning jogs with my pugs I have offically five now puggie, spike, oscar, pickles,and tobey,I love horror movies and action flicks best movie ever was Bad Boys one and two total craziness we ride together we die together ay you know how it goes bad boys for life lol,I also enjoy to get trampled in tag football with my brother and all his huge bodybuilder friends I believe last year one almost suffocated me when he toppled me for the damn football, myspace addict here!!!,dancing around my room with a hairbrush singing at the top of my lungs to Mariah Carey,Karookee I am a slave to the mic,sleeping in till five in the afternoon, playing countless hours of video games knowing once I beat the freakin things I don't get a prize I just get to start over,I love to talk I'll keep you on the phone for hours sorry Bri Bri (he hates that but I am learning to not talk so much lol I am learning very slowly)Going to the movies and throwing popcorn at eachother,going to the mall for no reason but to get there and then leave, watching gameshow network,Daydreaming,I have bowled on several occasions a 265 in bowling beating my mother's weak score of 150 lol, i love to watch poker but I could never play it i'd lose i just don't have the face,I am still deciding where to get my frist house and how to get it built I think I want a big enough house so I can have tons of parties,I love sailing in summer to wherever my pops feels like going, visiting my nonna in italy, shopping, blaring my music so the whole world can yell at me,wearing my sunglasses at night,Someday I want togo bungee jumping, I want a tattooo maybe, I would love to go skydiving naked while eating ice cream lol freak I know but funny,jetskiing though I always manage to get hurt, camping but I hate bugs lol,Studying and caffine once again, I love the New England Patroits because they are the best team ever, snowboarding and paintball/airsoft baby!!!, modelling,argueing with my brother, love quarrels,driving insane is also another hobby I believe I do it very well lol I swear I could say donut and I would not only confuse my self but I would confuse everyone I seriously drive peeps nuts but what are friends for, and most of all just being with my friends and driving them nuts. But most of all the biggest thing about me is I love with all of me.Nothing will ever change that. I am very giving very caring. I believe I get that from my father most of all. I keep my friends close but my enemies always closer. Which brings me to you can never really hurt someone if they think nothing of you. Can't break me try but it will not be done a tear may fall but in the end I will smile and walk away knowing you were never a real friend anyway if you made me sad.I just love to smile though and be funny nothing can change that but I have also come to realize life is too short to live life the way others want you too. Or to listen to everything someone says because in the end their lies could cause you to almost lose the best thing in your life.Never believe anything until there is proof words mean nothing. But if it was the best thing it will come back. Just like if you love someone and you let them go if they come back then it's yours if they don't they never were.I know what happiness is and I have it now and as time goes I will get happier and my love will grow.This is me just a typical normal girl with big crazy dreams and a heart that gets broken so easily. Sometimes I make mistakes but I always fix them. No mistake is ever left a mistake and no regert is ever a regert espeacially if it made you happy at one point.I fight for what I want until it tells me it doesn't want me.. I can't just walk away from anything especailly if I try to. I can get confusing and I can drive you to the point of confusion yourself but the best part is you will be laughing insde sayin the whole time this girl is nuts but hey at least you'll think of me. Goodbyes are hard.Seeing the one you care for be with someone else breaks my heart especailly if deep down you want them to be with you but as long as they are happy I can smile.

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white will=back	*July/10/07 - 03:13:48 PM* thanx 4 the add
I_Love_Him	*June/07/07 - 03:23:10 PM* here just do it most people aren't sure of what they realy want in life. I received this letter from a friend on the computer, did what it told me to, and within a week, everything I had wished came true!! Here's an exact copy, this really works!!!! *********************************************************** 1. To yourself, say the name of the only guy or girl you wanna be with 3 times! *********************************************************** 2. Think of something you wanna accomplish within the next week and say it to your self 6 times!! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ >> 3. If you had 1 wish what would it be? say it to yourself 9 times!!! ----------------------------------------------------------------------- 4. Think of something that you want to happen between you and that 1special person and say it to your self 12 times!!! -------------------------------------------------------------------- 5. Now, heres the hard part! Pick only 1 of these wishes and as you scroll down focus and concentrate on it and think on nothing else but that wish. * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * Now make one last &final wish about that one wish that you picked. After reading this, you have 1 hour to send it out to 15 people, and what you wished for will come true within in one week! u only get one chance!!!!! Now scroll down and think of your crush!!!
aj07	*May/18/07 - 06:28:22 PM* yezzir!! :D
Dr Blood	*May/14/07 - 04:29:10 PM* I'm sure he will when he gets home. Good idea. I've been moving my stuff over here too but haven't got very far yet as I was doing my website instead to preserve the B movie blogs. You can change the color of your MP3 player too and choose lots of different kinds for your myspace page (and other profiles!). And then it's just a matter of going round seeing who has what on their playlist so you can add it. It's a lot of fun. :o)
Dr Blood	*May/14/07 - 04:21:54 PM* I'm really glad you are here too. I wondered if you'd got the address of this site from me. I've been promoting it today in the bulletins too strangely enough. All we need now is Michael...
Dr Blood	*May/14/07 - 04:10:22 PM* Hello, good evening and welcome to LoudFusion! :o) I love all your pictures. Hmmm, you look so familiar. :o)