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Costa! I'm missing you so bad. I feel like crying. I wish I were with you, I could hold you tight and shed all of my tears on you. And....and...then could deny all of this. You know what, it's so terrible to get involved in someone, someone who treats you like a tissue paper and throws you away after using you, and you feel no other wayout just 'coz you STILL want that very person. I always used to think why people fuss so much about this love thingie, why do they get so sad and blue over such 'trivial' affairs, but I feel now how and why it happens. And it's really hurting, at times. I know, I'm rather sure....you 're also feeling the same. You 're passing every single moment thinking about me. You wanna talk to me but your ego is holding you back. Why, Costa why????? You said it's time to rejoyce and you said so many beautiful things to me. I love you Costa, yes, I love you, too and I'm you too love me. Then what's keeping you, Costa? It's all the matter of trust. Before I win your love I wanna win your 'trust' Costa, 'coz I feel it's the most loyal form of love. I don love you just for the sake of my own satisfaction, to me, love is worship and I in some insane kinnda way have started worshipping you. I don even believe I'm, Ayeshah Zafar, is writing this all. I had never dreamt of myself getting so nilly willy. BUT.....I'm not being nilly willy....In all its seriousness I know this is what I'm supposed to be doing. See Costa! I know you keep a good nice head on your shuolders, all I wanna say is just don judge me by other's opinion. That's what I wanna say when I say see me with your own eyes. I wish you could read it. And if ever you get a chance to read it I so sincerely pray to my Lord that you 've full trust on me by that time. AMEN Just try to understand Costa, I wanna take you out of that shell of insecurity to which you have got accustomed so bad that you even don realize it anymore. I wanna take you to the heights of success. May Allah grant me courage and strength. AMEN.