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There has been a time since I wanted to make up with a friend. She is a good friend that, from time to time, missunderstands the tings I say. And I, since I don't have patience, end up exhasperated. And, of course, we fought. There had to be a lot of fights before we stoped talking, but since that very moment, I knew I would miss her a lot. For that reason, I asked her to forgive me inmediatly. But sometimes we hurt too much without realizing. Our last fight was in a moment when she was sad and depresed, and probably she wanted me to help her. But I couldn't see what she was asking for, and I didn't thought anything that I said after that, I just tried to cheer her up... and like sometimes, she didn't see what I wanted to say, but what my words were saying. I must admit it, I'm not pretty good choosing words. I'm not pretty sure about what happened the, but I know that she got upset, and she wouldn't talk to me for months After that, I tried to show her that I didn't want that to end that way, saking for forgiveness, and triying to show her that I cared about her a lot... but after all this time, the only thing I managed to do was for her to not avoid me... But, obviously, she haven't forgiven me... But now, do I really deserve her forgiveness? I had hurt her, and now I just want to get back our past relationship. As if it was so esy to heal something like that. I mean, once you hurt someone, there will be at least a scar. I was just thinking that, maybe, I should let her be free, and just let her forget about me... but it's painful to think that way. I don't want her to forget me, and I don't want her to be hurt either... But it seems that it's impossible to do so. I used to say: "It's better to have regrets about something you have done, and not about somethig you haven't" But this time, I don't really think thats better. I mean; if I try something more, I may hurt her again, and regret about it. But if I don't do anything, I will regret about lossing her from here to eternity. Agh, I don't know what is what anymore. Maybe I should sleep a little... Oh, yeah, that's right... sorry for my english... xD